I want sleep

I've officially run out of words to write in my research paper.
STRESS, STRESS, STRESS.
Oh, and have I mentioned..
STRESS? :))

Whadda madrepaking shit does this paper wanna do to me anyway?

Where do you go to forget?

Late night visits on our rooftop always seem to do the trick.

Fire or ice?

FIRE AND ICE


Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted or desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if I had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.
-Robert Frost


In death, for the first time, fire..because you actually feel something, good and bad. The intensity is what makes us human, why we are human at all. But if I had to suffer death a second time I would choose ice--to be numb, to die still painful..but instead of growing in intensity, you grow in numbness, till you don't feel at all. 'Cause like the bad things we go through in life, we're glad we felt it, it helped us grow but we wouldn't want to go through it again. In more simple analogy, if I pricked myself with a needle, I wouldn't wanna prick myself again right?

As I continued to ponder on this, these ideas also came to my head: at the moment, I'm living my life in FIRE. I am literally living my life in fire day by day. I'm pretty sure when I get through all this, I'll become a better person than I am now but I wouldn't want to voluntarily torture myself to go through all this again, would I? Courageous people live in fire, smart people live in ice--detached.

If you capture something through fire in the literal sense you have to "burn" it, thus you feel everything about it, inside and out. But the catch is after you "capture" its essence, you leave it in ashes, knowing it can't be revived. It will never be how it was ever again. It practically went through a chemical change with no way back. But to capture something through ice would be to freeze it, you'll be able to appreciate its essence more and more in time. You freeze or you keep what you had to begin with and it will stay that way but that's the catch..it's only the outside that you could see, you can't unveil the inside. Since you keep looking at the same thing for a long time, you start seeing and realizing things you couldn't before. You start seeing it in its many different angles. You capture its essence..but only so far.

We meet again

This has got the be the nth time I've made a blog :))
Blogspot and livejournal, I've missed you both.